Words from the ocean

"Looking at a sunset, just for a second you forget your separateness: you are the sunset. That is the moment when you feel the beauty of it. But the moment you say that it is a beautiful sunset, you are no longer feeling it; you have come back to your separate, enclosed entity of the ego. Now the mind is speaking. And this is one of the mysteries, that the mind can speak, and knows nothing; and the heart knows everything, and cannot speak."

The most precious moments in Life - ultimate madness

There was a moment in my life, unexpected one. It was like Michelangelo painting, Tilopa composing his poem, MJ singing his "you are not alone", MLTR singing "u took my heart  away", Indian maestros AR Rahman composing soulful music, Ilayaraja composing a bringing out number of melody, more than all, it was like a new born child laughing. Yes, the laugh will be for a moment but that will stay in for years. Have you ever felt any of these at a same time? Today was the day which will never be forgotten in my life. If i leave this planet, these memories will be there in the cosmos and will be recycled in some other way. I know these moment will be over soon, since these are those happiest moment where time will show his e-g-o, it will fly like an airplane so fast. He did his work correctly today(always he does), time is a stone i guess, not even listening my words. Let it be like that, lets make a good sculpture out of it. Good.

Surprises - today  i found the real meaning.  It happened today. The moment when i saw them, we ran to our pasts, i saw their eyes and they saw mine, we all traveled to our younger days where we played together, ate together, ran together, those happiest moments stay "still" in life. 

I thought today morning - if i meet my childhood friends will they remember the moments? I concluded -  boys will keep everything in them but what about girls? they will forget the moments/memories, since they adopt to new situations easily. In this so fast moving world, they might forget the precious moments, if they meet me, i will have a wall in between and they will also have a wall and we would interact so formally. And i don't like this word "formal", since that will make a person to think in logics, life has to be lived without logic then only life will be like a poem. Okay lets come back-they will surely forget, so i planned to do a research on female psychology "why they forget easily?" But all my conclusions where wrong! first time! what to do? i am a small child who learns always, so i love to make mistakes so that i can learn from it. 

Relatives - In India it is more important. Even i have these so called relatives who use to talk so formally if they meet. From my younger days i was the loneliest person in this planet, i use to feel everything in me alone, i talk to myself a lot, i interact with myself . Since i grew alone, since the people whom i loved the most where not with me, Obviously, they are in my heart always but physically they are around more 6000miles away. No contacts, not even a message. I use to think about them and feel that i am missing them a lot. If these people where with me then i might have changed, my life would haven so normal , no abnormality at all . I know the life which we expect will not come(it will take its own time to come), Even now its not a problem, i believe if one gets more pains in life, then he is that guy who is going to change the entire world, he will make some difference. It will happen and it had happened. My dad's friends use to visit our home often, they are my lovable person, the moments with them are the happiest for that tiny heart. Yes, they show care and love. A tiny heart needs that. Other than that what else it needs? These moments vanished suddenly I was left alone in a rustic rotten leafy forest for years, no green trees, no breeze, only kisses from the sun. Can't bare but i expected to go back to those precious moments. It never happened. Changes happen unconsciously. And it happened today. Moments are back, full of green trees, breeze that touches my soul, love from the above sky pouring to the earth and more than all those moments are back. I became a real small child and laughing inside me. The moment i saw them, they closed their mouth in surprise WOWWOWOWO!!!!!!! I went near them, they recognized me yaar... See another WOWOWOWOWO!!!!! moment, first time in my life words was stuck, Michealangelo stopped his painting, Tilopa stopped his poem, MJ and others stopped composing music, the whole world was silent. You know why? This is the surprise! I met them, they remember the days we played and ate together. They felt the happiness in their soul, i too felt it. Girls change but they keep the love and moments of happiness with them. I discovered today. They are the greatest person in this planet, without them one can't exist they are equal to mother nature, that's why even nature is refered as "her". We ran to the younger days, they are surprised to see me in this stage. They are Sudha and Nisha, o sorry Sudha is elder than me it seems so i have to call her AKKA (sister), Sudha akka and Nisha. Nisha has changed in her looks but she is an admirer of nature and art and even sudha akka too, she is a lover of art, she is going to perform her Bharathanatyam (one of the greatest and ultimate Indian art which comes from heart as dance), I believe that the best way to express one's feel is art.They both are admirers and lovers of nature and observer of the moments. They have come across many pains but now they are here with me, physically. Sudha akka asked my feel, i told her I feel like writing about this situation. But she didn't get my words so Nisha helped her, the words got stuck in happiness and its coming out slowly.. Wonderful experience. 

I have to tell about other family whom i adore the most, they were also here. She was surprised when I said about the moments, she asked a lot of question about me and my work. Wonderful, i didn't expect this from her too. We both have played a lot, i use to give her my toys to stop her cry, i was a great lover from my younger days itself (sometimes self boosting is needed). She is here with her husband actually, She asked me about the foods and diet i did, i expressed my view. She is a lovable girl who talks softly like a melting ice berg. I didn't expect this to happen today. In conclusion I have lots of people who love me a lot, so i have to do great things. I have a family to go sit and talk and eat and i have got a new brother his name is Jayasurya(of course he will play soon in cricket). He is so sweet, he loved my driving he slept actually in my driving. And the aunt who has my mother name hugged me when she saw me, I was surprised to get hugged with full of love and care. Love and care are always there but people forget them to observe and rejoice. If one needs it he should show, how can one recognize whether the other is loving or not? He has to express, suppression is sin but expression is to win. Show Love you will get it. I used to beat myself for the mistakes and loses i  experience emotionally but later i decided to show love to the whole world, on the whole i started to love myself. That increased my talents and i have become that somebody now.

There was one thing in me which was liked and loved by all.. Its my eyes that never changes it seems (physically it wont, but mentally they way she perceives differs).

Even though the happiest moments are not physically with me, they are inside me and i have put a pause to keep that inside me always. Yes, tears are coming of course she has to come out. Since when beautiful moments are felt she will come out. Nothing wrong in crying. Its wonderful.

Really Life is a misery and it is full of surprises and miracles. 

If we want those we have to be the surprises. Be the surprises and be the miracle...

Life consists of precious moments, observe them, seek them, be with them.

Life will throw questions and we may struggle to seek for the answers, but remember we are the answers and we are the questions. Life will change always, 

You have everything you want, You the greatest person in this planet. You are all you want. You can do anything and everything. Do the best.

I know this post will have a confusion, it will not have relative sentences, i may talk something and later i will refer something. But no problem at all, i don't want to edit the words that came. So i am leaving this post like that. Even this is a part of art. Every person is unique. Read it and enjoy it and don't forget to record your happiest moment.

Birth...Day....Birth.... Life becomes so simple!

This morning... i was remind, today is my birthday! wow! wonderful, not for the birthday, its for the reminder. Life s always evolving. In my younger days i was expecting this day to arrive. So that i can provide sweets, get new clothes, no one will scold me or beat me my teacher use to warn me "today, i wont beat you, since its your b'day", from morning to night gifts will come, wishes will come, smiles will be shown in front of my face, kisses will be given. Later my expectations became as painful moments. Since there will be no one to wish, no dresses, no sweets to give etc etc... all oppositely happened. I used to worry a lot about this situation. And i am a failure in my school days, no one will respect me, leave this respect, they wont even show love. I used to sit in the bathroom (presently thinking room) for minutes and pour my feelings as tears. She (sine tears is so beautiful as an angel) will mix with the water in the ground and flow off. With that my pain also flows.. I believe still. Even on birthday i got beatings from my teachers and will be an "out standing" student. When the teacher comes i have to go out! that's their rule. It happened, I use to be out of the class and have a ton of weight in heart. Coz they sent me out all days, that's okay no problem. But even on my birthday they sent me out. How ridiculous! cant bare. Since that was a tiny heart which expects love without a shout. If they let me in without a shout, i may have asked the doubt. This never happened in life. Birthdays become painful a lot. No wishes, no kisses, no gifts, no cares, no love. It was as empty as possible. Those days i will hear only pathos music in the background.

The age of love - changed things! was expecting her call first. She used to wish me early by 12 AM, and she use to show her possessiveness by saying "i have to wish u first so i did". Some days passed and i was unable to meet her requirements. Her expectations have to be like that, no problem at all. She has to expect some qualifications both officially and personally. She had a four year degree and a five figured salary. But me, was in a little guy who runs after clients and wanna make my company into a big corporate. This never happened so i was not that guy who met her requirements. She was my second lover who taught me about life. She said when she left "Dear, understand this! its life, it will be like this only. You have to accept it!". Recently she got married and flied abroad with her new husband who has a six figure salary and working in a big I.T. concern. I was thinking about the talks she made while leaving. That time i was angry with her and had a great pain. Now things changed. I told her itself. What you did was correct. Coz, i realized what life is, and i am a person in your family, so what you did is correct. Thanks!. I told this. She had little tears in her eyes, but she never let that out. May be an e-g-o probs. *Suddenly my mobile rang.. other side "hello dear, how are things?" a female voice...*

Now, this day has come again. They reminded me about today! my mom and dad they only did this. Then only i came to know that this was that day. It was the number again. And you all know that i am a nonbeliever of time, So i never cared about the age. When people ask i may tell them i am just the kid. That's true too, since being a baby will gain a lot of knowledge in life.Coz the baby is ready to learn always. See this life became so simple. I got as usual in the morning, read some words of my master and wrote this article and listening to songs. This is wonderful moment. 

Why one need only one day to celebrate his birth? Since every moment is new, every second is new, this moment evolves into another moment and that evolved moment becomes this moment again. But people miss to admire these precious moments in life. They need only one day to celebrate and become aware about their age and themselves. Some may feel a lot about the achievements or work they didn't do. Why is this so? Life will become simple as possible. Since life is evovling. One will not even consider the birthday, since he may be running in a path to achieve something. But that again becomes a pressure. So i believe that every moment is to celebrate, rejoice, think, admire. So lets celebrate  every moment, lets give the gift of love and care to others. We will get what we need. 

This is just an observation in one's life "on changes", i am frank in this post about the changes. Life is changing always. When a particular knowledge comes, everything in life becomes so simple. Really so simple. For example "festivals" that too diwali, we might have run for the crackers once. But now we may sit and admire those fireworks or we may say to others "this is the other day in life, what is there to burst crackers, we are wasting out money". See! and we have fought for that rotten eraser which was took from us by our friend in class. This happened. But think! will we ever fight for that eraser or pen which we lend in bank(always there are ppl still who come without a pen to fill the form, they are everywhere. Wherever there is form there are ppl, who forget to bring pen). No not at all. Since life has become so simple! 

Life is simple! Crazy life.. Admire.. Rejoice... Celebrate every moment!

 "Become more and more innocent, less knowledgeable and more childlike. Take life as fun - because that's precisely what it is!  " - ocean

* "the above posting contains real events and imaginary events too."