The most precious moments in Life - ultimate madness

There was a moment in my life, unexpected one. It was like Michelangelo painting, Tilopa composing his poem, MJ singing his "you are not alone", MLTR singing "u took my heart  away", Indian maestros AR Rahman composing soulful music, Ilayaraja composing a bringing out number of melody, more than all, it was like a new born child laughing. Yes, the laugh will be for a moment but that will stay in for years. Have you ever felt any of these at a same time? Today was the day which will never be forgotten in my life. If i leave this planet, these memories will be there in the cosmos and will be recycled in some other way. I know these moment will be over soon, since these are those happiest moment where time will show his e-g-o, it will fly like an airplane so fast. He did his work correctly today(always he does), time is a stone i guess, not even listening my words. Let it be like that, lets make a good sculpture out of it. Good.

Surprises - today  i found the real meaning.  It happened today. The moment when i saw them, we ran to our pasts, i saw their eyes and they saw mine, we all traveled to our younger days where we played together, ate together, ran together, those happiest moments stay "still" in life. 

I thought today morning - if i meet my childhood friends will they remember the moments? I concluded -  boys will keep everything in them but what about girls? they will forget the moments/memories, since they adopt to new situations easily. In this so fast moving world, they might forget the precious moments, if they meet me, i will have a wall in between and they will also have a wall and we would interact so formally. And i don't like this word "formal", since that will make a person to think in logics, life has to be lived without logic then only life will be like a poem. Okay lets come back-they will surely forget, so i planned to do a research on female psychology "why they forget easily?" But all my conclusions where wrong! first time! what to do? i am a small child who learns always, so i love to make mistakes so that i can learn from it. 

Relatives - In India it is more important. Even i have these so called relatives who use to talk so formally if they meet. From my younger days i was the loneliest person in this planet, i use to feel everything in me alone, i talk to myself a lot, i interact with myself . Since i grew alone, since the people whom i loved the most where not with me, Obviously, they are in my heart always but physically they are around more 6000miles away. No contacts, not even a message. I use to think about them and feel that i am missing them a lot. If these people where with me then i might have changed, my life would haven so normal , no abnormality at all . I know the life which we expect will not come(it will take its own time to come), Even now its not a problem, i believe if one gets more pains in life, then he is that guy who is going to change the entire world, he will make some difference. It will happen and it had happened. My dad's friends use to visit our home often, they are my lovable person, the moments with them are the happiest for that tiny heart. Yes, they show care and love. A tiny heart needs that. Other than that what else it needs? These moments vanished suddenly I was left alone in a rustic rotten leafy forest for years, no green trees, no breeze, only kisses from the sun. Can't bare but i expected to go back to those precious moments. It never happened. Changes happen unconsciously. And it happened today. Moments are back, full of green trees, breeze that touches my soul, love from the above sky pouring to the earth and more than all those moments are back. I became a real small child and laughing inside me. The moment i saw them, they closed their mouth in surprise WOWWOWOWO!!!!!!! I went near them, they recognized me yaar... See another WOWOWOWOWO!!!!! moment, first time in my life words was stuck, Michealangelo stopped his painting, Tilopa stopped his poem, MJ and others stopped composing music, the whole world was silent. You know why? This is the surprise! I met them, they remember the days we played and ate together. They felt the happiness in their soul, i too felt it. Girls change but they keep the love and moments of happiness with them. I discovered today. They are the greatest person in this planet, without them one can't exist they are equal to mother nature, that's why even nature is refered as "her". We ran to the younger days, they are surprised to see me in this stage. They are Sudha and Nisha, o sorry Sudha is elder than me it seems so i have to call her AKKA (sister), Sudha akka and Nisha. Nisha has changed in her looks but she is an admirer of nature and art and even sudha akka too, she is a lover of art, she is going to perform her Bharathanatyam (one of the greatest and ultimate Indian art which comes from heart as dance), I believe that the best way to express one's feel is art.They both are admirers and lovers of nature and observer of the moments. They have come across many pains but now they are here with me, physically. Sudha akka asked my feel, i told her I feel like writing about this situation. But she didn't get my words so Nisha helped her, the words got stuck in happiness and its coming out slowly.. Wonderful experience. 

I have to tell about other family whom i adore the most, they were also here. She was surprised when I said about the moments, she asked a lot of question about me and my work. Wonderful, i didn't expect this from her too. We both have played a lot, i use to give her my toys to stop her cry, i was a great lover from my younger days itself (sometimes self boosting is needed). She is here with her husband actually, She asked me about the foods and diet i did, i expressed my view. She is a lovable girl who talks softly like a melting ice berg. I didn't expect this to happen today. In conclusion I have lots of people who love me a lot, so i have to do great things. I have a family to go sit and talk and eat and i have got a new brother his name is Jayasurya(of course he will play soon in cricket). He is so sweet, he loved my driving he slept actually in my driving. And the aunt who has my mother name hugged me when she saw me, I was surprised to get hugged with full of love and care. Love and care are always there but people forget them to observe and rejoice. If one needs it he should show, how can one recognize whether the other is loving or not? He has to express, suppression is sin but expression is to win. Show Love you will get it. I used to beat myself for the mistakes and loses i  experience emotionally but later i decided to show love to the whole world, on the whole i started to love myself. That increased my talents and i have become that somebody now.

There was one thing in me which was liked and loved by all.. Its my eyes that never changes it seems (physically it wont, but mentally they way she perceives differs).

Even though the happiest moments are not physically with me, they are inside me and i have put a pause to keep that inside me always. Yes, tears are coming of course she has to come out. Since when beautiful moments are felt she will come out. Nothing wrong in crying. Its wonderful.

Really Life is a misery and it is full of surprises and miracles. 

If we want those we have to be the surprises. Be the surprises and be the miracle...

Life consists of precious moments, observe them, seek them, be with them.

Life will throw questions and we may struggle to seek for the answers, but remember we are the answers and we are the questions. Life will change always, 

You have everything you want, You the greatest person in this planet. You are all you want. You can do anything and everything. Do the best.

I know this post will have a confusion, it will not have relative sentences, i may talk something and later i will refer something. But no problem at all, i don't want to edit the words that came. So i am leaving this post like that. Even this is a part of art. Every person is unique. Read it and enjoy it and don't forget to record your happiest moment.